Lady of Prose said:
Did you people ever, ever consider that all of the experts all over the web just might be right about PA? Do you really care that you have been scammed to high heaven and are encouraging others to sign with PA. What is wrong with you??? Where are your brains??? Just listen to your drivel on the boards--you contradict yourselves left and right, because you are so confused. You know in your hearts you are NOT published. You are only PRINTED, as I am. We are vanity, and poor vanity at that---Geez, people, WAKE UP!!
Lady, that's what I tried to tell them in my post on Shelagh's forum. I've been having pricks of conscience since then as it's out of character for me to be so direct - but on the other hand I think they need to know that it's not just us who thnk like this.
Many of them - on Shelagh's board - insisted that they went into PA with their eyes open, they CHOSE PA, they accept all the consequences. Well: the one consequence the ALSO have to accept is that the ENTIRE INDUSTRY does not consider them to be legitimately published authors. It's not just the members of this board or those of us who posted on Shelagh's forum. We are the ones who tried to tell them KINDLY. They kept slapping us and telling us to shut up. I really had no option but to say it as bluntly as I could.
The problem is that for many PA authors the whole enterprise was an exercize in ego-building. The ability to say "I am a published author". To bask in the applause of family and friends, to finally feel "I am somebody". And this is the fatal flaw in attitude. I once read a sentence at the very start of my writing which kept me on track: There are those who want to be writers. And there are those who want to be KNOWN AS writers.
I feel that self-esteem must be in place before you start your writing career, or at least grow alongside it. You can't
use your "published" status to feel important. If your only sense of worth comes from the feeling "I am a published author" you've got a problem - whether you're with PA or anyone else, but more so with PA because it's an imaginary bubble, and sooner or later it will burst.
PA lurkers: You can play the game happily on the boards, but as you are already experiencing, the moment you try to interact with the real world - with bookshops that reject you, with editors and agent who don't recognise your "writing credits", with authors' societies who won't accept you, with serious reviewers (as opposed to reciprocal reviewers from other PA authors) who won't review you, with authors who don't regard you as serious players and colleagues - you run up against obstacles. This is the real world; and though you may
feel professional to yourselves, this real world does not consider you so, and won't until PA truly revolutionizes its business practices and even changes its name. Highly unlikely.
You claim to be proud to be with PA; very well, then, accept this consequence, this reality:
the real world does not see you as published, but printed. Deal with it! You are published authors only in your dream world; go on dreaming, if you will, but don't expect others in the real world to enter that dream with you. Either you wake up and encounter that world on its own terms, or stay in the dream.
Perhaps you are afraid to face that truth. Afraid of your bubble bursting, afraid of waking up from the dream to a world where you are no longer a "published author" but only a beginner. There is the embarassment (especially having to confess to family and friends), the feeling of failure, the feeling of having to start all over again. But you will find a very soft landing; you have friends here who will respect you as fellow writers and help you on your way to publishing success. Believe me:
there is life after PA!