Oh tomo I'm so sorry love. I know it's hard to take, but everyone's right. She died reasonably comfortable, safe and loved. I went through a similar situation last fall. THe hubs and I found a kitten under a friend's trailer and took him in. Ijit was the cutest little guy, curious as all hell. He escaped one night (we have another cat who is strictly an outdoor kitty...by his choice not ours) and he got into something we figure. I ended up taking him to the vets and had him put down. It was the hardest thing I've ever done (it was only me hubs was at work), but I know that he was happy for the last 3 weeks of his life. And yes, I still miss him...