Hounding After Hours

It's something I've been focusing on more. My characters are too much like me, which is to say they are a bit standoffish. I'm working on developing people who are not like me and can go off on their own to explore the world I'm giving them.

Ah, we like you this way, Ted. I understand about chars having the writer's personality. Mine tend to start out prickly and deceptive. Like me. I'm the kind that babbles and rambles on about dumb stuff to hide what's really going on inside. You're the wall of silence, I'm the wall of sound. LOL

We'd be a pair. I say little, see everything. You sound off to feel out what I'm like as if you're using sonar to locate something. By the end of the night, we're both tired and confused.

I'm good at talking at length about nothing. But I prefer to observe. I'm a careful study of people and not many can get something past me.

This is another problem, characters that know too much about others. How to explain something like that?

That know to much? Hmph. I have the same issue with my fantastical world. I dunno. That's a challenge.

Just another challenge to work through. It's part of the process.

I wonder what the Hounds would do if I let me demon villain control my brain for a while. He's pretty perverted and depraved. Nah, better not. I'd get banned for sure.

Perverted and Depraved is sort of the stock in trade for a few of us.

I mean, I'm an angel. I give out free candy and puppies.

But some people here aren't well.

Like me? I'm not well at all. I mean c'mon. I write a pseudo-medieval world with a dark underbelly of slave trade and blood fueled demon worship. I'll never get this thing published with issues like that.

I'd read it. It sounds good, to me. You might like NightWhere by John Everson. I dearly enjoyed it. Here is a review of it from my blog.

Sounds amazing. Ima have to look this one up.

John Everson is a good writer. A couple folks here have gotten into him recently. NightWhere is delightfully dark and erotic.

I should be working on my WIP, but I'm not. Instead I re-read an old short story I wrote a couple of years ago about a clown. And I have to say, there are some damn good images in it. A little cleaning up and it should be ready to send off.

I should be writing as well. Or rewriting the one novel I already finished. *sigh* I just have too much noise inside my head right now.

I'm sorry. I hate that feeling.

Right now a woman is venting on me about her romantic issues with a guy that has major issues himself. I can solve everybody's problems but my own.

Tonight's a weird night for me anyways. Long story there.

Urf. Sorry. I hate when other people want you to solve their problems. I avoid it if I can. Good luck. Or just pull out that short about the peanut butter and broken glass and see if your lady and gent think you're still a good mediator.

Heh...she's venting right now. Apparently I'm a good listener. Like I said, I keep quiet.

By good listener he means he secretly plots to destroy everyone. It just makes him look attentive.

BriMaresh said:

By good listener he means he secretly plots to destroy everyone. It just makes him look attentive.

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Shhhh! You'll give my secret away!

I'd have blown my stack by now. Total meltdown. Do it all the time. I take pills for it, but sometimes . . . they don't help.

Uh, whiney B**ch lady I mean.

I haven't had a white-out like that in a long time. I used to, but I've learned control.

White-out. Wait, other people get those? I wake up from my meltdown and I don't remember much of what happened while I was out. That's what the pills contain. The black out phase.

Yeah, I've had white-outs. I get angry, the world fades to white, I begin laying down mushroom clouds and when I come to, all I see is carnage and people are hurt and offended by what I just did.

You can always tell it's coming because my face turns white as a sheet.

I don't do that anymore. I have control.

I'm glad I'm not alone in that. I thought I was a freak. Unfortunately, I don't always know it's going to happen. I did it to a ex once. He'd always told me he wanted to see one. Then he got to and he didn't understand when I tried to explain that I have no idea how to turn it off. We broke up over it.

I've learned that breathing helps. But the best way to avoid them in perspective and attitude. It wasn't easy for me, but I learned.

When I was in Korea, I learned very quickly that tempers are a sign of immaturity and nobody will take you serious once you lose it. So, I fought hard to maintain control and work on my attitude. They kept trying to push my buttons, too, so they could say, "look at this stupid American child." But I never let them win. As a result, I gained a lot of respect.

Also you're sort of a mountain. I don't think taunting mountains is smart.

Urf. I'd never survive. Persistent attempts to make me black out will indeed make it happen. My Ex found that out the hard way. He was into role playing games and he triggered a black out over wanting to control me and my character during game play. Not like I actually cared about the RP but it bugged me that he couldn't trust me enough to let me take the reins.