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And like I said earlier, it's a personal thing.
Maybe the best that we can do is to keep it *personal* and not insist that our reality apply to others but in the hope that it may resonate with some.
My reality is that I was born into extreme circumstances; I realize that other circumstances are/were much more extreme. But I believe that what this did to/for me, is to force me, at an age when i was too young to understand what I was *doing*, expand my awareness and emotional capacity. That was the reality that I was born into, so I dealt with it in the way that I could at the time. I didn't shut down, I didn't close off, I rode it to my capability, trying to understand as much as I could while I did. And I believe that stretched me into seeing and feeling things in more extreme ways. And now all these years later, I am still someone who not only has the capacity for high highs and low lows, but I tend to go looking for them even when they're not there. For years, (I'm mindful of it now, so not so much anymore) I created conflict where there should have been none because that was what was familiar to me. I think I've been able to use it, though. Once i understood it, I've tried to. We all use what it is that we have, or what we need to, I guess.