I've been flailing about in QLH, and I had a major epiphany about my novel, and it's got me in such a tailspin. I'm sure many of you have been where I am...
Here's the situation: my novel started off as a YA novel about a teenage werewolf named Genny who falls in love with a golem named Emmett. Together, they defeat an eldritch creature from under the sea and save their town from destruction. My beta readers said that they thought the plot line was Scooby Doo-ish, and the sexual tension between Genny and her uncle Wyatt, the werewolf who turned her, was so thick you could spread it on bread. Why didn't I focus on that?
So, two rewrites later, and it's an adult horror novel about Genny and her uncle Wyatt, and how the presence of this undersea creature pushes the tension between them to the breaking point. The problem is, when I wrote my query, there was no mention of the golem. It was all about Genny, Wyatt, and Lorelei. That felt right to me.
Then I thought about the story, and realized that I could excise Emmett and the story would still mostly work. Emmett served as Genny's conscience. His love humanized her, even lulled her. He was a secret she kept from Wyatt. He was the first guy she ever slept with who loved her. But this all sounds so YA to me. Removing Emmett would up the angst factor, remove Genny's external moral compass, take away her only ally. And that's all to the good, right?
So I'm realizing that, on my fourth rewrite, I might just need to remove Emmett.
I am heart broken. Some of the best writing in the book is about Emmett. I love this character. I literally could not sleep last night thinking about cutting him. But my word count is 108,000. If I cut him, I'm sure I could drop down to 100,000 words. The story would be tighter, sadder, more horrific, more morally confused. A different book, another layer of this onion to peel off to get to the bleeding, weeping heart of the story.
Still, I feel like crying. You're all invited to my pity party.
Here's the situation: my novel started off as a YA novel about a teenage werewolf named Genny who falls in love with a golem named Emmett. Together, they defeat an eldritch creature from under the sea and save their town from destruction. My beta readers said that they thought the plot line was Scooby Doo-ish, and the sexual tension between Genny and her uncle Wyatt, the werewolf who turned her, was so thick you could spread it on bread. Why didn't I focus on that?
So, two rewrites later, and it's an adult horror novel about Genny and her uncle Wyatt, and how the presence of this undersea creature pushes the tension between them to the breaking point. The problem is, when I wrote my query, there was no mention of the golem. It was all about Genny, Wyatt, and Lorelei. That felt right to me.
Then I thought about the story, and realized that I could excise Emmett and the story would still mostly work. Emmett served as Genny's conscience. His love humanized her, even lulled her. He was a secret she kept from Wyatt. He was the first guy she ever slept with who loved her. But this all sounds so YA to me. Removing Emmett would up the angst factor, remove Genny's external moral compass, take away her only ally. And that's all to the good, right?
So I'm realizing that, on my fourth rewrite, I might just need to remove Emmett.
I am heart broken. Some of the best writing in the book is about Emmett. I love this character. I literally could not sleep last night thinking about cutting him. But my word count is 108,000. If I cut him, I'm sure I could drop down to 100,000 words. The story would be tighter, sadder, more horrific, more morally confused. A different book, another layer of this onion to peel off to get to the bleeding, weeping heart of the story.
Still, I feel like crying. You're all invited to my pity party.