I detest the "process"* of submission of writings to potential publication venues at the same level I detest scorpions and cockroaches and rats and the coming of winter. I didn't used to, but the miasmal results of my submission efforts over many years have got me to this point.
I started out detesting it, but that's because a) I'm lazy (and it's EFFORT ew effort gross barf) and b) I haven't really ever thought it would lead to anything and operate on the assumption I won't get anywhere. I keep trying to prove myself wrong, but, well...no dice, so far.
I suppose I lack imagination. I can no longer imagine the "acceptance" of anything I could submit anywhere. I search submission targets, agents, publishers, publications, and nothing looks even remotely worth submitting to. It was by no means always that way. But you learn reality by confronting it, and I've done plenty of confronting.
I don't think anyone can possibly confront enough things in their lifetime to learn what reality is.
I'm sure I won't get anywhere, I'm sure everything I write is moronic and stupid, and I'm sure I can't succeed.
But, I try to remind myself, the only constant in my life so far is that I'm really bad at predicting what I'm going to do, and generally speaking, I don't know anything about anything, so all the certainty in my body isn't worth more than a kitten turd.
My own ignorance is what keeps me going, if I am going anywhere at all. (Which, I am not always.)
This is a rant, I guess. But tonight I was writing, and at the end of that effort, I arrived at this place in the "process".*
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* pro-cess n. 1. A movement forward, an advance in endeavor.
2. In the context of creative writing, see euphemism, stasis, stagnation, futility
-- Blacbird's Unabridged Dictionary, 2014 ed.
It's not really a process, it's just shit you do, like any other shit.
We have to do a lot of shit on a daily basis that is ultimately futile or not pleasant or boring or will just have to be redone the next day, all our efforts of the past hours erased...
(GOD I HATE CLEANING)
It's an ephemeral activity that may mean something someday. Or not. The only thing that is sure is that if you don't submit, you don't get published by someone.
So. Don't submit and write only for yourself. Don't write at all. Submit and have a shot at someone publishing it. Or bypass the whole thing and self-publish.
It is up to you to decide what makes you the most satisfied, and there is no wrong answer, but those are your options.
Personally, I submit when I'm feeling dopey and cavalier about life, and when I'm feeling moody and blah, I just don't write. Or submit. Or do anything, honestly.
It's not a process, just something to do.