I really wish I was already on hormones, looked less masculine, and had the courage to come out to my family today.
Basically, I went clothes shopping. *sigh*
This was for clothes for day-to-day wear, so yes, stuff that my family will see me in. Basically, I have a lot of "drinking" T-shirts (Ts with funny slogans about beer or being drunk). But I quit drinking about 2 months ago, so I feel really weird about wearing them anymore.
I don't have an awful lot of Ts left in my collection that aren't drinking Ts. So today I decided to shop around for a new look...
It's SO depressing walking around the men's section of stores, trying to think things like, "Oh, I so like this look," because, frankly, men's clothes are very obviously for men, at least the ones I looked at today were.
Is it so hard to have more variety for men's tops than the following?
- Ts with funny slogans (a look I'm getting away from)
- Ts with pictures of cars or brands of beers or very male branding otherwise on them
- Polo Ts with a breast pocket too small to hold even a pack of cigarettes, and generally with horizontal stripes in white, on a solid wall of one colour (why horizontal? Don't men need the slimming nature of vertical stripes just as much as women? Argh!)
- The sort of sleeveless shirts which are supposed to show off your male upper body
- Dress shirts (admittedly, dress shirts look alright sometimes, but I'm not about to wear them every day, because they get way hot and I hate doing the buttons up)
Argh!
This pretty much leaves me with band Ts. There's a shop in my local mall that has band Ts (as well as slogan Ts) and they have a nice selection.
But to be honest? Why aren't there any men's clothes that are neither A) a solid wall of colour (occasionally with yucky horizontal stripes) or B) guy-related interests in a picture or slogan (with what seems like no actual effort in thinking things through) nor C) dress shirts? Why?!
The look I'd be happy with right now doesn't seem to exist. I want more than one colour, an interesting design, not about cars or drinking, no obvious "look at what brand I'm wearing" branding, that sort of thing.
But there was NOTHING like that in the men's section. And then when I wandered into the women's section, they did have these sorts of designs, only with a different neckline, such that if I wore it people would probably say to me, "Hey, do you know you're wearing a woman's top?"
*headdesk*
Staying in the closet (tactically for now) is just so crap.
Sorry, just had to whinge.