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Defining the "Real" Writer By Aaron Lazar
Dana, an aspiring author, recently went through a severe session of self-doubt. Her life had been tough lately. Very tough. Serious problems with her anorexic teen daughter spiked, requiring sudden hospitalization. On top of that, the whole traumatic event was exacerbated by Dana's unstable and abusive spouse, who decided this would be the perfect time to punch his wife in the eye and threaten abandonment.
You thought your life was tough? She faces this stuff on a daily basis and fights to do what's right for her beloved daughter while struggling to maintain her sanity. Sure, there are other problems that dwarf Dana's. But having to return home each night, dreading the reception you'll get or the harassment you'll have to endure, is like living in Stress City. I can't imagine going home each night to that. It has to be hell.
So, when we met for our writers' meeting and she began to pour out her doubts about her ability to write, her "right" to write, her commitment to the craft… it got me thinking.
"I can't be a real writer because I didn't make the time to write. I wasn't driven, like you are," she said. "Look at you! You have so many problems, yet you're on your tenth book in five years. You make time for it. And I'm still struggling with my first."
It floored me. She thought if it wasn't happening now, it would never happen.
I reminded her that life can sometimes get in the way and that fighting for her daughter's life and fending off blows from an idiotic husband might just take precedence over working on a novel. Besides that, she works a forty-hour job outside the house, commutes a few hours a day, and still takes complete care of the home, meals, and dog. It has to be enough to level anyone's ambition.
I told Dana she has a lovely "voice" and an easy, readable style. Then I reminded her that I didn't start writing-- seriously writing-- until my father died when I was forty-four. At that point, my daughters were a bit more self-sufficient. They learned to do their own laundry, make their lunches, and get their homework done without too much help from dear old Dad.
Fortunately, Dana started thinking about her novel again. She resumed the process of planning and plotting by signing up for an online class. We plan to start chapter swapping any day now.
Our discussion flushed out thoughts about the definition of a "real" writer. What is a "real" writer? Can I claim that title? Or does that honor only belong to best-sellers like Laurie King or John D. MacDonald? Does one have to be a household name to earn the title? I realized that I've secretly harbored that ridiculous notion for far too long. And you know what? I hereby reject it.
I am a writer, damn it. A real one. There. I said it.
But what about ten years ago when I was in Dana's position? I hadn't written one novel-- yet. Sure, ideas floated around in my head and I busily took mental photographs of everything around me with intense detail. But I didn't write it down.
Was I a "real" writer then? Was I ineligible to hold the title because I hadn't unleashed the words yet? I knew I wanted to write. I'd dabbled in high school and college and adored it. I wrote at work-- but it was all technical stuff. There was an incredible longing that simmered beneath the surface for something more creative. I planned to someday write a mystery series, but thought it would be when I retired. That urge to write-- that desire to get it all out of my head-- it was always there. I wasn't a "real" writer yet… was I?
What was the mechanism that set my muse free? How does it happen for others? What drives them to finally open the floodgates and let it out? There are many novelists who wait until later in life to get their writing careers going. And yet, there are others who jump out of the starting gate in their youth and keep plowing through 'til only death stops them.
In my case, the catalyst was the death of my father. I needed an outlet and I found it. Once the doors were opened, I couldn't shut them, even if I wanted to. The words burst out like water breaking through a dam. The lift afforded by the creative outlet was cathartic. It felt so good, I was hooked for life.
For those of you, like Dana, who haven't yet begun to get those words out-- don't despair and don't think it won't happen. This writing thing is something in your heart, something imprinted indelibly in your spirit that just won't go away. The urge is there. From the beginning. And you will write.
It happened to me. It will happen to Dana. And it can happen to you.
Don't moan about what you haven't done yet. When the time is right, you'll start tapping away at that keyboard or pick up that pen and release the floodgates. When it happens, you'll never turn back. And sure, you can thank me then by writing a glorious novel that might change the way someone looks at life. Sigh. Won't that be lovely?
Aaron Paul Lazar, author of the LeGarde Mystery series and Moore Mysteries, resides in upstate New York with his wife, three daughters, two grandsons, mother-in-law, dog, and four cats. After writing in the early morning hours, he works as an electrophotographic engineer at Kodak in Rochester, New York. Additional passions include vegetable, fruit, and flower gardening; preparing large family feasts; photographing his family, gardens, and the breathtakingly beautiful Genesee Valley; cross-country skiing across the rolling hills; playing a distinctly amateur level of piano; and spending "time" with the French Impressionists whenever possible. Although he adored raising his three delightful daughters, Mr. Lazar finds grandfathering his "two little buddies" to be one of the finest experiences of his life. Visit his website at www.legardemysteries.com for excerpts, reviews, interviews, photos of the Genesee Valley and Gus's Gardens, and music by Chopin.
Double Forté is the founding book of the LeGarde Mystery series and was released in January, 2005. Upstaged, the second book, was released in October, 2005. His third, Tremelo: Cry of the Loon, will be released via Twilight Times Books under the Paladin Timeless Imprint in fall, 2006. Mr. Lazar is currently working on his tenth book, One Potato, Blue Potato. He is a regular columnist for FMAM (Futures Mystery Anthology Magazine) and The Back Room, A Cozy Retreat for Writers and Readers. Contact him at: Aaron.Lazar@yahoo.com.
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