"I've been in a lot of fights in my life, and never once did I ever say to myself if only I'd had a middle-aged nun to help me out..."
After lunch we had group. Encounter groups were the place where we let off steam. If someone pissed you off, when the person screaming is done, you proceed to scream at the person you want to scream at. That person usually begins screaming at you until you’re both done, at which time someone else begins screaming at you, that person, or someone else. If no one screams at anyone else fast enough, you can begin screaming at someone else altogether. It was loud.
The first few paragraphs of my latest short story.They called him Ishmael. He had run from the rest of the world, a world that had no understanding or love or need of him. He had run to the sea a man of knowledge. Quickly forgotten. A poet, perhaps. Perhaps not even himself, but someone great, a man whom the world would remember at some point, think back to and miss quite fondly and wish that he had never gone away in the first…then he begins fading into the shadows cast by the lot, falling, even, from the bow to a place much darker where he could gaze both left and right and see into and through the eyes of the others, those with whom he spent those days and nights on the salty, bobbing ocean waters.
He was misunderstood, this man who asked to be called by a name of his own choosing, and it was only his own eyes and mouth, his thoughts, the letters and words that formed from them, that could show him to the world. So he had run to the only place where he could show himself, but there, too, he fell into the shadows of the world, a world on the wooden boards of a ship’s deck. Then, were the views he had of everyone else, perhaps, only his view of them, and not actually them at all? From where had they all run? From what? Had they, too, faded into the shadows of a time and place that had no love for them? But, then, where was the love supposed to come from, and who was meant to give it? For them, only the world of their ship deck had strength enough to warm them, if only in the sounds of their own voices asking to be called--
That was where I stopped writing. It’d been seven months. No, eight. All that time gone by, and there wasn’t another word. I sat at the desk, pencil in my fingers, squeezing it and retracing the letters that came before, thinking. At first, I thought walking through the woods in the park would help, make the movements in my hand come back. It always had before. I liked seeing the squirrels and birds talking back and forth, running or flapping from branch to branch, and smelling the air blow through the wet leaves and the bark. Sometimes I left the trail. The woods seemed to get bigger the farther I walked from the way back. At the center was little pond, and the air was colder. I tried going when no one else was, so I could sit there and listen to the sounds, voices of a world that, in some way, was older there, at the heart of the woods where I was as far away from all the rest of it as I could’ve been.
“Hey, wait up! We should discuss some tactics first. I fight midrange using my longsword.” He lifted his hand to show the weapon. “What about you?”
Her brown eyes slowly turned to him and she simply said, “I kill them.[FONT="]”[/FONT]
As always, she looked at the drum with both longing and loathing. Longing for all the truths it could tell her, and loathing for the price the power behind the drum would charge for the revelation of those truths. She remembered what her grandmother had told her so long ago in the little adobe house in Taos Pueblo.
"For the little truths, the Trickster God will be happy with a minor pain for payment. A drop of blood will usually solve the problem of a lost lamb or a straying foal. The larger the truth, the higher the price and it is that price that a Sandcaster must always be willing to pay. And don’t think it will always be your own blood and pain that will be the required payment – very often it could be pain and blood from one you love. Remember that, Granddaughter. You have a great gift, but with great gifts there always come great pain. That is the way of the world. The Trickster God is fickle, and has no real cares for the problems of men."
On my Mr. Salty's wages I could afford a sturdy appliance box on Dequinder, maybe.
The sight of the gate astounded him. He had not expected to see it, still intact and erect by the dirt road, every iron rod exactly where it had been, where it should be. The wild weeds patching the road to his father's house reminded him of time wasted. A lifetime ago. The distant fields were awash with a thick verdant hue, and a sea of grass rippled in a haze of the sultry breeze. The trees looked grand and untamed, layers upon layers of foliage and shadows waving at him like old friends. Beyond those emerald crowns and down the narrow road lay the fortress of his past.
Love is fickle that way. A bloody bitchy mistress, if you ask me. And yet, I know deep down I couldn’t bear to date you again. Because if I was to love you, things wouldn’t be the same. After so many years apart I think we’ve forgotten how to be together. We’ve forgotten how to love each other.
All I remember how to do is want with such an insatiable appetite that all other things in life become meaningless.
Stacy was my Queen of Hearts. It wasn’t in that “Off with your head” way, and I don’t think she was legitimately insane, but she was a little eccentric. I gave her that nickname after I caught her one Valentine’s Day with a bottle of pink nail polish painting the petals of the white roses I bought her. When I asked her why, she rolled her eyes and told me that any idiot could see they were the wrong color.
“Roses from lovers should be pink or red, especially on Valentine’s Day,” she said in her best Teach The Dumb Boyfriend voice. “I prefer red, but red nail polish makes me look like a tramp so I went with the closest color to red I had which just happens to be,” she paused to turn the bottle upside down to read the sticker on the bottom, “Pink Strawberry Passion.”
“The point is, he would do it for Exie.” Grant said. “Even if the odds were against him. Because Exie is someone he cares about, and when someone you care about is hurt you find yourself doing things you never thought you could do before.”
She flashed a grin at me that injected into my veins a kind of warmth and companionship I’d once known and so sorely missed.
Dahlia grabbed Vetis’s hand with her free one and the three disappeared back out into the late night. They found a booth in some twenty-four hour restaurant and ate bacon and eggs and pancakes until Seth felt ready to puke. They talked about meaningless things without revealing a single truth about themselves and Seth wondered if this was what it was like to have friends.